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s:doyouknowhowtosmile,teacher

theteachersmiled,andgaveawarmeyecontacttoeachstudentoftheclass.

suddenly,thewindblewawaytheclassroom,theyfeltfresh.

t:doyouknowitnow

s:notreally……doyoumakeitjustonfaceorbyyourheartcanyoutellmebecauseican\\\'ttell--youaresoreal.

t(silentforasecond):well,itdependsonyouwhatyouwerethinking……youcanbelieveyourself.(teacher\\\'seyeslookdown,turningpages)

s:can\\\'tyoujusttellme

t:iamnotastraightperson,soithinktheanswerisnot.

s:why

t:i\\\'vetoldyouso.

thencamethesilencewithteacher\\\'scough.

s:yourthroatseemsbroken,mayigiveyousomemedicine

studentfishedoutanoldbottleofbrowntablets,andgaveitonteacher’shand.

theteacherimmediatelycan\\\'thelpcryingwhenshesawtheoldbottle.

theteachercoverherface,andwalkouttheclassroomquickly.

afewminuteslater,theteachercameback,smiled.

t:i\\\'mnotgonnatolie......andforsomereason,ididn\\\'twanttotellyouthetruthaboutmysmilebefore.butnowicantell.ilovethesummerroadsafteritrains,itsmellslikewatermelon,andwassolovelyandfresh.thewayitesoutissoflattered,i’vealwaysfeelsohappy......butifsomeonedisturbme,icouldn’tfeel.....justlikenow,nowiwanttobehomeandalone,andwewillneverseeagain,becausewithoutmysmilecoveronmyface,ican’tlivehereanylonger.nooffend,butthisismylastandonlyhonest.goodluck!

threestepsoflove

step1:

b1:hello!ihaveyourname.

g:sowhat

b1:iwanttoknowyou.

g:why

b1:iloveyousomuch.

silenceforasecond.

g:doyouwantme

b1:desperately.

g:butiamnot,andthat’sthedifference.

step2:

g:hello!ihaveyourname.

b2:andthen

g:iwanttoknowyou.

b2:butiamnot,soithinkyou’dbetternot.

silenceforasecond.

g:youareright.

step3:

b1:ifyouknowyouwillabandonme,thenwhyyoubewithmebefore

g:becauseyouarepathetic.

silenceforasecond.

b1:shouldikindlyadviseyoutoetme

g:well,iwill,becauseyoutoldmeso.iwilletyouanyway,thisismyresponsibilitytoprotectmyself.butyourwordswasjusteleratethisprocess--youmademedothis,soiwon’tfeelguiltytodelaythisprocess.

silence.

g:iwillcareyoueventhoughwewillnevertalktoeachother......ibegyourpardon,becauseijustcouldn\\\'toverdosedmyself.butweshouldstophere,andyouwillfindoutthetruthiswhatisaid......

b1:ifyousayonemoreword,iwilllockyouup.

butyoucan\\\'tlockmeup.

heguessshewillsayso,butshewasjustlookhimforasecond,andwalkaway.

hewasfrozen.

andhereyeswassocool,blue,asifgiveashoutcryingpeacefully:i’vetriedsomanytimes,soicouldeptunsessfulresult,butmydesirewasnotsodesperately.