第68章BOOKTHESECOND：THEGOLDENTHREAD(51)

第68章bookthesecond：thegoldenthread(51)

inthehopeofhisrecovery，andofresorttothisthirdcoursebeingtherebyrenderedpracticable，mr.lorryresolvedtowatchhimattentively，withaslittleappearanceaspossibleofdoingso.hethereforemadearrangementstoabsenthimselffromtellson'sforthefirsttimeinhislife，andtookhispostbythewindowinthesameroom.

hewasnotlongindiscoveringthatitwasworsethanuselesstospeaktohim，since，onbeingpressed，hebecameworried.heabandonedthatattemptonthefirstday，andresolvedmerelytokeephimselfalwaysbeforehim，asasilentprotestagainstthedelusionintowhichhehadfallen，orwasfalling.heremained，therefore，inhisseatnearthewindow，readingandwriting，andexpressinginasmanypleasantandnaturalwaysashecouldthinkof，thatitwasafreeplace.

doctormanettetookwhatwasgivenhimtoeatanddrink，andworkedon，thatfirstday，untilitwastoodarktosee—workedon，halfanhouraftermr.lorrycouldnothaveseen，forhislife，toreadorwrite.whenheputhistoolsasideasuseless，untilmorning，mr.lorryroseandsaidtohim：'willyougoout？'

helookeddownattheflooroneithersideofhimintheoldmanner，lookedupintheoldmanner，andrepeatedintheoldlowvoice：

'out？'

'yes；forawalkwithme.whynot？'

hemadenoefforttosaywhynot，andsaidnotawordmore.but，mr.lorrythoughthesaw，asheleanedforwardonhisbenchinthedusk，withhiselbowsonhiskneesandhisheadinhishands，thathewasinsomemistywayaskinghimself，'whynot？'thesagacityofthemanofbusinessperceivedanadvantagehere，anddeterminedtoholdit.

missprossandhedividedthenightintotwowatches，andobservedhimatintervalsfromtheadjoiningroom.hepacedupanddownforalongtimebeforehelaydown；but，whenhedidfinallylayhimselfdown，hefellasleep.inthemorning，hewasupbetimes，andwentstraighttohisbenchandtowork.

onthissecondday，mr.lorrysalutedhimcheerfullybyhisname，andspoketohimontopicsthathadbeenoflatefamiliartothem.hereturnednoreply，butitwasevidentthatheheardwhatwassaid，andthathethoughtaboutit，howeverconfusedly.thisencouragedmr.lorrytohavemissprossinwithherwork，severaltimesduringtheday；atthosetimestheyquietlyspokeoflucie，andofherfatherthenpresent，preciselyintheusualmanner，andasiftherewerenothingamiss.thiswasdonewithoutanydemonstrativeaccompaniment，notlongenough，oroftenenoughtoharasshim；anditlightenedmr.lorry'sfriendlyhearttobelievethathelookedupoftener，andthatheappearedtobestirredbysomeperceptionofinconsistenciessurroundinghim.

whenitfelldarkagain，mr.lorryaskedhimasbefore：

'deardoctor，willyougoout？'

asbefore，herepeated，'out？'

'yes；forawalkwithme.whynot？'

thistime，mr.lorryfeignedtogooutwhenhecouldextractnoanswerfromhim，and，afterremainingabsentforanhour，returned.inthemeanwhile，thedoctorhadremovedtotheseatinthewindow，andhadsattherelookingdownattheplane-tree；butonmr.lorry'sreturn，heslippedawaytohisbench.

thetimewentveryslowlyon，andmr.lorry'shopedarkened，andhisheartgrewheavieragain，andgrewyetheavierandheaviereveryday.thethirddaycameandwent，thefourth，thefifth.fivedays，sixdays，sevendays，eightdays，ninedays.

withahopeeverdarkening，andwithaheartalwaysgrowingheavierandheavier，mr.lorrypassedthroughthisanxioustime.thesecretwaswellkept，andluciewasunconsciousandhappy；buthecouldnotfailtoobservethattheshoemaker，whosehandshadbeenalittleoutatfirst，wasgrowingdreadfullyskilful，andthathehadneverbeensointentonhiswork，andthathishandshadneverbeensonimbleandexpert，asintheduskoftheninthevening.

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wornoutbyanxiouswatching，mr.lorryfellasleepathispost.onthetenthmorningofhissuspense，hewasstartledbytheshiningofthesunintotheroomwhereaslumberhadovertakenhimwhenitwasdarknight.

herubbedhiseyesandrousedhimself；buthedoubted，whenhehaddoneso，whetherhewasnotstillasleep.for，goingtothedoorofthedoctor'sroomandlookingin，heperceivedthattheshoemaker'sbenchandtoolswereputasideagain，andthatthedoctorhimselfsatreadingatthewindow.hewasinhisusualmorningdress，andhisface（whichmr.lorrycoulddistinctlysee），thoughstillverypale，wascalmlystudiousandattentive.

evenwhenhehadsatisfiedhimselfthathewasawake，mr.lorryfeltgiddilyuncertainforsomefewmomentswhetherthelateshoemakingmightnotbeadisturbeddreamofhisown；for，didnothiseyesshowhimhisfriendbeforehiminhisaccustomedclothingandaspect，andemployedasusual；andwasthereanysignwithintheirrange，thatthechangeofwhichhehadsostronganimpressionhadactuallyhappened？

itwasbuttheinquiryofhisfirstconfusionandastonishment，theanswerbeingobvious.iftheimpressionwerenotproducedbyarealcorrespondingandsufficientcause，howcamehe，jarvislorry，there？howcamehetohavefallenasleep，inhisclothes，onthesofaindr.manette'sconsulting-room，andtobedebatingthesepointsoutsidethedoctor'sbedroomdoorintheearlymorning.

withinafewminutes，missprossstoodwhisperingathisside.ifhehadhadanyparticleofdoubtleft，hertalkwouldofnecessityhaveresolvedit；buthewasbythattimeclear-headed，andhadnone.headvisedthattheyshouldletthetimegobyuntilregularbreakfast-hour，andshouldthenmeetthedoctorasifnothingunusualhadoccurred.ifheappearedtobeinhiscustomarystateofmind，mr.lorrywouldthencautiouslyproceedtoseekdirectionandguidancefromtheopinionhehadbeen，inhisanxiety，soanxioustoobtain.