第107章
第107章“pity！”hesaid，andsighedandpaused.“itisalwaysthewayofeventsinthislife，”hecontinuedpresently：“nosoonerhaveyougotsettledinapleasantresting-place，thanavoicecallsouttoyoutoriseandmoveon，forthehourofreposeisexpired.”
“mustimoveon，sir？”iasked.“mustileavethornfield？”
“ibelieveyoumust，jane.iamsorry，janet，butibelieveindeedyoumust.”
thiswasablow：butididnotletitprostrateme.
“well，sir，ishallbereadywhentheordertomarchcomes.”
“itiscomenow—imustgiveitto-night.”
“thenyouaregoingtobemarried，sir？”
“ex-act-ly—pre-cise-ly：withyourusualacuteness，youhavehitthenailstraightonthehead.”
“soon，sir？”
“verysoon，my—thatis，misseyre：andyou’llremember，jane，thefirsttimei，orrumour，plainlyintimatedtoyouthatitwasmyintentiontoputmyoldbachelor’sneckintothesacrednoose，toenterintotheholyestateofmatrimony—totakemissingramtomybosom，inshort(she’sanextensivearmful：butthat’snottothepoint—onecan’thavetoomuchofsuchaveryexcellentthingasmybeautifulblanche)：well，asiwassaying—listentome，jane！you’renotturningyourheadtolookaftermoremoths，areyou？thatwasonlyalady-clock，child，‘flyingawayhome.’iwishtoremindyouthatitwasyouwhofirstsaidtome，withthatdiscretionirespectinyou—withthatforesight，prudence，andhumilitywhichbefityourresponsibleanddependentposition—thatincaseimarriedmissingram，bothyouandlittleadèlehadbettertrotforthwith.ipassoverthesortofslurconveyedinthisestiononthecharacterofmybeloved；indeed，whenyouarefaraway，janet，i’lltrytoforgetit：ishallnoticeonlyitswisdom；whichissuchthatihavemadeitmylawofaction.adèlemustgotoschool；andyou，misseyre，mustgetanewsituation.”
“yes，sir，iwilladvertiseimmediately：andmeantime，isuppose—”iwasgoingtosay，“isupposeimaystayhere，tillifindanothersheltertobetakemyselfto：”butistopped，feelingitwouldnotdotoriskalongsentence，formyvoicewasnotquiteundercommand.
“inaboutamonthihopetobeabridegroom，”continuedmr.rochester；“andintheinterim，ishallmyselflookoutforemploymentandanasylumforyou.”
“thankyou，sir；iamsorrytogive—”
“oh，noneedtoapologise！iconsiderthatwhenadependentdoesherdutyaswellasyouhavedoneyours，shehasasortofclaimuponheremployerforanylittleassistancehecanconvenientlyrenderher；indeedihavealready，throughmyfuturemother-in-law，heardofaplacethatithinkwillsuit：itistoundertaketheeducationofthefivedaughtersofmrs.dionysiuso’gallofbitternuttlodge，connaught，ireland.you’lllikeireland，ithink：they’resuchwarm-heartedpeoplethere，theysay.”
“itisalongwayoff，sir.”
“nomatter—agirlofyoursensewillnotobjecttothevoyageorthedistance.”
“notthevoyage，butthedistance：andthentheseaisabarrier—”
“fromwhat，jane？”
“fromenglandandfromthornfield：and—”
“well？”
“fromyou，sir.”
isaidthisalmostinvoluntarily，and，withaslittlesanctionoffreewill，mytearsgushedout.ididnotcrysoastobeheard，however；iavoidedsobbing.thethoughtofmrs.o’gallandbitternuttlodgestruckcoldtomyheart；andcolderthethoughtofallthebrineandfoam，destined，asitseemed，torushbetweenmeandthemasteratwhosesideinowwalked，andcoldesttheremembranceofthewiderocean—wealth，caste，customintervenedbetweenmeandwhatinaturallyandinevitablyloved.
“itisalongway，”iagainsaid.
“itis，tobesure；andwhenyougettobitternuttlodge，connaught，ireland，ishallneverseeyouagain，jane：that’smorallycertain.inevergoovertoireland，nothavingmyselfmuchofafancyforthecountry.wehavebeengoodfriends，jane；havewenot？”
“yes，sir.”
“andwhenfriendsareontheeveofseparation，theyliketospendthelittletimethatremainstothemclosetoeachother.come！we’lltalkoverthevoyageandthepartingquietlyhalf-an-hourorso，whilethestarsenterintotheirshininglifeupinheavenyonder：hereisthechestnuttree：hereisthebenchatitsoldroots.come，wewillsitthereinpeaceto-night，thoughweshouldnevermorebedestinedtosittheretogether.”heseatedmeandhimself.
“itisalongwaytoireland，janet，andiamsorrytosendmylittlefriendonsuchwearytravels：butifican’tdobetter，howisittobehelped？areyouanythingakintome，doyouthink，jane？”
icouldrisknosortofanswerbythistime：myheartwasstill.
“because，”hesaid，“isometimeshaveaqueerfeelingwithregardtoyou—especiallywhenyouarenearme，asnow：itisasifihadastringsomewhereundermyleftribs，tightlyandinextricablyknottedtoasimilarstringsituatedinthecorrespondingquarterofyourlittleframe.andifthatboisterouschannel，andtwohundredmilesorsooflandcomebroadbetweenus，iamafraidthatcordofcommunionwillbesnapt；andtheni’veanervousnotionishouldtaketobleedinginwardly.asforyou，—you’dforgetme.”
无一错一首一发一内一容一在一6一9一书一吧一看！
“thatinevershould，sir：youknow—”impossibletoproceed.
“jane，doyouhearthatnightingalesinginginthewood？listen！”
inlistening，isobbedconvulsively；foricouldrepresswhatiendurednolonger；iwasobligedtoyield，andiwasshakenfromheadtofootwithacutedistress.whenididspeak，itwasonlytoexpressanimpetuouswishthatihadneverbeenborn，ornevercometothornfield.
“becauseyouaresorrytoleaveit？”
thevehemenceofemotion，stirredbygriefandlovewithinme，wasclaimingmastery，andlingforfullsway，andassertingarighttopredominate，toovercome，tolive，rise，andreignatlast：yes，—andtospeak.